9/10/11 0015hrs
9 years ago at this hour, I remember I was sitting in the dark on the floor.
It was a quite night. My head leaned on the wall. Looking far into the deep dark.
Once and twice there was wind blew on my skin, flipping a bit the cloth I'm wearing.
I was sitting, leaning with no effort to support my body like as if I am dead. I switched off my energy. The only living part of me is the lung. Pumping the air in and out. And it is the only sound that is closest to me. I wasn't upset. I wasn't depressed.
Not too far from where I sat, I could hear some sounds. People talking but I could't catch a word as it was very mere and I didn't pay any attention at all. They were my schoolmates as far as I knew and I am pretty sure about that. Anyway, people are doing their own businesses, It's late and dark.
I kept looking, staring far in the dark. Haven't moved since.
Wondering how life is like when I'm getting mid 20's.
Will I be ok? Will I be KO? Will I be the same as I was? Will I be what?
Skipped.
Life is different now. Look is different now. Everything is different now.
And today, I leaned on my chest, staring in the dark, again. How will I be next?